undescribable touch :)

hye..i wanna to share a thing..most of the people know it and sometimes it would be a happy ending and sometimes it would be also hurts you well.. ya..teenage love or...accurately puppy love.. :) the story starts from form one.. emm..he was second intake for mrsm serting.. first time i meet him was at ds (dewan selera) he was white and i wonder if he was a chinese boy.. well..when i went to mrsm serting..i knew that im the only chinese girl in that batch.. that time im really hope that got more chinese friend..but it can't be changed.. back to the story.. :P so i decided to find out his name.. and he was muslim.. emm..so in form one got many holidays.. one day.. i checked my facebook new feeds.. ang got many friends request and.. i saw his name..he requesting friend to me.. i approve and i checked out his profile.. he chat to me..and i reply..he reply..i reply..he reply.. and i knew that i had already liked him.. then form two... i heard he had couple.. emm..honestly,the girl was beautiful..i can't lie well...i dunno..i always acted don't know when he walked across me.. but i knew that i just can secretly liked him.. sometimes he will talked to me..and sometimes i also realised that he was watching me but im the quiet type..i just keep it as a secret not like the others.. they will talked to their friends when got boys was texting them or whatever.. so that time..all people wanted to couple..not because they really liked each other but they want "hot"..i mean kononnya nk famous.. and form three... i dunno but this year i became another person..maybe.. im more active and a little bit noisy.. and im more busy preparing for my important exam pmr.. well..pre-trial pmr and trial pmr we did it in the dg (dewan gemilang) that time i tried to search for him.. and i found that his place was crossed about 30 degree from my place.. so i can watch him easily.. i dunno but sometimes he will turned his head and watched me.. sometimes i watched him and suddenly he turned his head and watched me back. that time im really shocked and i quickly focused on my paper back.. soon...hari raya.. many people wished their friend.. and he wished to me too.. but i know that he wished to my friends too.. his gf too.. later.. one day.. at the cafe.. im watching tv..and he went to the cafe with his friends too,, that time i just acted liked usual..but actually my heart was beating faster..i dunno why.. then..'unsangkarable"..he called out my name.. i just shocked and i watched him.. i cannot believe that he was talking to me that time.. well..he told me to change the channel.. and i just did what he asked.. then..i saw him walked out the cafe with his friend.. i just felt lazy and i stopped to change the channel then i saw he was walking back to the cafe again and he was walking towards me.. i dunno that time.. but i knew my heartbeat was even faster.. he was standing beside me.. and he was much taller then.. haha but after that..we didn't talked with each other anymore sometimes.. i saw him walked together with his gf.. and even took photos together.. sometimes..i want to talked with him but im not brave enough when graduation.. he didnt talked to me im felt sad.. but i control myself im felt like im wearing scars.. miss watever..i felt happy that i can keep it in my memories and thanks for my friends..they support me :) “I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you :D